the life of an introvert

tyl gokudera is soooooo daammmn smexyy and hot and gyaaaaaaaaaaahahaha.. the truth is, i just wanna try and upload and image here.. XD



so today i went to school as usual.. only because i had to sit for my Art exam.. which after i finish the teacher straight away gave my marks .. and i got 80%!! waa i feel very happy coz in previous exams this year, i never once got an 'A' for art and so yeah i'm very content with that~ but then i found out that i got 56% for accounts.. oh well at least i did'nt fail like i did this time. i swear when i finish my SPM i am gonna burn all of my accounts notes and exercises. i hate accounts, i hate accounts!

so during the time when i was doing my art paper 2 which was drawing and painting.. i've suddenly realised how damn LONELY i felt at school. so do u wanna kno something? in reality, i don't have any 'BEST FRIENDS' at school . maybe good ok friends but .. hmm.. somehow i just can't accept anybody rite now to be my 'best friend' . n in truth, after i finish my SPM next year, i want to forget everything there is about my secondary school life and start anew. well of course i won't demolish my memories of some of my friends like Jag, CJ, Jez, Li.. but i will want to forget about those others.. heck i don't think other people knows my EXISTENCE. or even damn care about lil ol me...coz i practically never talk at school. coz why? coz i'm shy and ugly and i just don't like to talk about unnecessary stuff.

sumtimes i feel so damn lonely when i see those people with good friends laughing out loud.. haa it sure has been a long time since i've done that.. oh wait! i have done that before .. with my sister .. yesterday.. heh..

seriously.. school is just a bore to me. there's nothing fun going on.. thats why i love it when there's holidays.. coz that mean i can stay at home and go online, do some cgs, read mangas, and of course, WATCH ANIMES!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear anime, mangas and cgs are the saviour of my lonely boring life.. if it were'nt for them, i don't think i want to live anymore.. at school i might be a quiet boring loser, but when it comes to animangas and cgs, i can become a hyper crazy fanatic otaku who does'nt give a damn whats going on around her surroundings. n i really like my friends in DA.. coz they are soo damn nice!!! i can't believe they would even want to look at my arts and even compliment them.. omg why are you guys so damn nice?? if u'r one of my DA friends, here's a chocolate heart for u ~~~ ahahahaha


oh gwaaah this journal is by far the longest i've ever written... haaah it sure is nice to write stuff in this journal.